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Marathon Momento – Without Regret

In Eclipse on November 13, 2009 at 9:33 am

It’s been almost a month since I ran my first marathon in Chicago.  My knees reminded me this morning as they ached in a chilly New Hampshire morning.  I remember vividly being at mile 20 in Chicago.  I had the distinct impulse to kick out my legs, pushing myself in the moment farther than I thought I could go.  The notion was in between an aspiration and a haunting.

Have you ever looked back at an event in your life and wished you had given more?  I think back to some of my college soccer performances.  Read the rest of this entry »

In Between Employment: From Certainty to Discovery – Part III

In Eclipse on October 20, 2009 at 3:38 pm

With recent unemployment rates spiking to ten percent, many job seekers have adopted the question, “Why did this happen to me?”  Times of my job searching have been filled with frantic behaviors, compulsive online applications, disregarding positions for paychecks and choosing shallow reading over research.  Some people may find themselves unemployed and desperately seeking their next position.  Others of you may be in a job and would like to create a plan to start something new.  In this series of posts, I will share movements that can transform us in the job search process.

From Certainty to Discovery

As I have stepped into writing, I have found that a major deterrent is the uncertainty of what will come of my writing.  Will anyone read it?  Do I have what it takes as a writer?  I tend to want certainty; knowing how it will turn out.  This is the nature of many creative pursuits, and, I would venture to say, the nature of Calling.  We are often called to a place that we have never seen (E.g. a new career, a new employer, a new set of coworkers).  We are often called into uncertainty, rather than certainty.  Let’s look at ways that we try to harness uncertainty. Read the rest of this entry »

In Between Employment: From Inaction to Momentum – Part II

In Eclipse on October 19, 2009 at 11:40 am

With recent unemployment rates spiking to ten percent, many job seekers have adopted the question, “Why did this happen to me?”  Times of my job searching have been filled with frantic behaviors, compulsive online applications, disregarding positions for paychecks and choosing shallow reading over research.  Some people may find themselves unemployed and desperately seeking their next position.  Others of you may be in a job and would like to create a plan to start something new.  In this series of posts, I will share movements that can transform us in the job search process.

From Inaction to Momentum

The past couple of days I have been resisting writing this post.  Ironic, that the shift we are considering here is going from Inaction to Momentum!  Funny, how the very things I desire, I can also resist.  Can you relate?  Maybe you are looking for employment or considering a change of employment.  Whichever the case, putting the ‘flesh-and-bones’ on your dream requires action.

“Hello!?!” A voice yelled at me on the other end of the line.  My coach and I were talking about the actions I would need to reach my financial goals in the upcoming months.  Actually, he was talking.  I was piecing together my options like a puzzle.  “What’s it going to take…for you to know what you are committed to?” he repeated.  Paralysis set in.  I had expressed doubt about my current course.  My lack of action reflected no course at all.  Read the rest of this entry »

In Between Employment: From Apathy to Opportunity – Part I

In Eclipse on October 15, 2009 at 2:11 pm

With recent unemployment rates spiking to ten percent, many job seekers have adopted the question, “Why did this happen to me?”  Times of my job searching have been filled with frantic behaviors, compulsive online applications, disregarding positions for paychecks and choosing shallow reading over research.  Some people may find themselves unemployed and desperately seeking their next position.  Others of you may be in a job and would like to create a plan to start something new.  In this series of posts, I will share movements that can transform us in the job search process.

From Apathy to Opportunity

“What do you want to do?”  It is a common starting question to a job search or job transition.  How many of us find ourselves responding, “I don’t know” or “I’m not sure”?  I am familiar with both of these phrases.  At times, I have used them to avoid the question.  Read the rest of this entry »

Emptying after a Race

In Eclipse on October 14, 2009 at 8:11 am

My past four months of training culminated this past weekend at the Chicago marathon.  Early morning wake-up calls, six workouts a week, and ordering my schedule around workouts all came to a close after the race.  I hoped to run a 3:30, which amounts to 8 minute miles.  I ran a 3:13 (7 min 22 sec) pace, despite two restroom breaks.  I was three minutes away from Boston qualification.

The weekend was also a family trip, initiated by my mom, who ran in the race with me as well.  It as her second marathon and my first.  Lindsay and my dad joined as spectators.  They were die-hard as weather was in the 30s most of the day!  The rest of the weekend was filled with limping, a museum visit (Oriental museum at Univ of Chicago) and culinary adventures in both Little Italy and Chinatown.  Both restaurants were amazing!  And so were our servers.  We concluded the trip with pizza dinner in Des Moines with my bro and sister-in-law.

Now, as I face a new work week, I’m feeling the absence of structure that informed so much of my time the past few months.  There is no timeline of morning distances to run.  There is no set mileage to reach each week.  Just emptying of all the disciplines that have supported me the past months.  Hopefully, this loss will make the space for what is next.  Onward.